Tin3Sn Tesserakoste Talks Part 8:
Absolutely devastating. This piece... I cannot describe how amazing it is.
The music starts with a feeling of powerlessness. Seeing something that you know is going to be lost but you can't save it, and you have to watch it fall further and further into the abyss. The echoes on the piano really reflect the distance well, the lack of accompaniment to me makes this sound almost like a fading light. and there is such an interesting texture here overall. I can't really describe it in terms of just one mood because it's so many. The chord at 0:17 is great, the best example of this. Perfectly captures what being lost means, that is, refusing to give you a way out or clarity.
Then a bittersweet sequence of memories. Memories of something you treasured with all your heart but for far too little time, something you were not ready to let go of. The entrance of the other strings certainly enhances this feel, and the more defined and straightforward melody embed the clearness of these memories into the story of the composition. That is, it provides a contrast to the lost of the previous theme and shows that this is something that is the light of your life. Finally, it fades away though.
In the dying moments come the next section. The arpeggios here sound rather uncannily like something I might have written. I guess a lot of my own music is defined by this same uncertainty, unevenness, and wistfulness, just like in this composition. The harp and glock motifs here emphasize the imagery even further, and the strings give the song a feeling of falling into a bath of light it'll never wake up from. Really beautiful.
And finally, the return of the opening riff. But there is nothing to mourn anymore. It's not trying to save something fading away, it's already gone away. You're left with little else but your own feelings of hollowness. And that is what being vulnerable truly feels like.
What a hauntingly heartbreaking composition. Another one that could not reach me for a long time.